February 18, 2003

My Beautiful Alex,

whose eyes comfort my soul...

I guess I’ve been a fool to believe that I would mean enough to someone as special as you to hold your attention. I guess we run in different circles you and I, and our circles are concentric versus overlapping. It is a miracle that we found a tangent and came together at any point. But I’m sure somewhere down the road I’ll find someone to who cherishes me as much as I do them. You need someone handsome, bold and dynamic; someone who can be there for you when you need them. Someone to watch over you.

I used to think your ex was crazy to let you go. Now I understand what happened to him. He ignored the many warning signs you gave him and chose to stay on the emotional roller coaster you presented. I wonder how many times you told him you were leaving and then relented so that he came to believe that it was just talk – until you left.

One thing that has finally become clear: whereas I had envisioned you in my future, you don’t see me in yours. So I guess you figure it’s time for you to move on. Perhaps it’s time for me to move on as well.

Carl